1st Black Out

I encounter my 1st black out today while shopping at the mall..
Funnily... I have ever been more tired yet alone at the mall for an even longer period of time some how.. today was bad...

I just q for some gift wrapping... and the q I was in.. i tink prob jus 5 mins (thou it felt kind of long)
For no reason suddenly I saw stars.. .ears were blocked.. and I told Big Mac to take over the q while I try to stand by the wall... oh well before I knew it.. .I was already on the floor.. .Horror...
Luckily some nice shopper offered me medical oil.. and rub my limbs. My limbs seem all numb and I was in cold sweat. I came to before long... and feel like puking... haiz.. luckily Idid not puke thr haha else I will freak all out.. thou I did hav a plastic bag with me... The BHG people offered me hot drinks and ambuance which I declined...

Now I have painful butt n knee cos i tink I knock onto them when I fell... OUCH

1st trimester is over!

Its either its officially over.. or is it already over?
I am confused as some website says i am while some say soon. Moreover with the change of EDD it seems like I am more confused than ever.. but strangely my morning sickness is still plugging me... thou its much better compare to week 5 or so.. but still its really irritating when I need to puke when I go out.. esp when the car goes over a hump and shake me and lil hbb a little...

I can eat slightly better now.. More of popiah, and fan choy, and also wantan mee... thats about all... haaa

Oh ya I managed to eat half a foot of subway sandwich yesterday too... n felt hungry rather fast after that...

Doctors and websites say actualy we just need to eat our normal portion from now till end of 2nd tri.. and 3rd tri jus need to eat slightly more... but seriously.. my daily intake of food (including frequency but excluding puking) is at least 3 to 4 times more.. I counted... I have like 6 meals a day...

Big Mac will make mi milo every morning, leave it by the bed so the moment I wake up I just jump ont he cup of drink to make myself better. Then I pop back to sleep.. and have my usual cornflakes n milk at ard 10ish... by 12 I will have my lunch... then 3 i will lhave my T break. and ard 5ish near 6 will b dinner... 9ish will be supper like a fillet burger, or popiah... if not toast. Sometimes 11ish i still eat!
gosh............

I try to stretch the timing so that I can skip a meal or 2. My record was 5 meals i tink... Im tired of eating the same old food everyday.. sigh...

Nxt week Big Mac is gg back to work.. I tink my days of plain porridge is BACK AGAIN... I still doesnt realy dare to goout n buy lunch alone since i feel breatheless very often.. I duno why...

NT Scan

Today I went down for the NT scan. Its mainly for down syndrome. I have my concern on such thing and so decided to go for the test.
Big Mac was busy.. so I gotto go alone.. He shld have tag along LOL.. cos today I saw HBB dancing in thr... was moving the body up n down... quite a funny sight.. at 1st I thought its a hiccup sign but the sonar say its normal movement hehe.. how cute...

the neck thickness was measured, and the nasal bone was detected. both showed that bb have lower risk of abnormalities. Oh im glad... but further test are needed. Gave 3 tube of blood for testing. The nurses were pretty good I must say.. well I dun expect much at KKh haa but they surprised me... I felt a needle poking thru me.. and then no more pain.. and before i knew it.. the nurse said all done... and i tto i onli had a tube.. but she said 3! wahhh... she is realy nice... make me painfree.. ok well.. im not afraid of needles in 1st place HAHAAAAA

3rd Gynae visit

For the past 4 weeks.. life was yoyo for me.. either i puke like mad.. or I am good as ever...

Its a tough 4 weeks to b frank
Big Mac cant come home occassionally meaning I have to settle my own meals..
oh well im sick of eating alrite..esp so when i can onli eat pasta, mee sua and porridge.. PLAIN! n not forgetting fillet o fish...

I get kind of depress occasionaly and cried alone esp in the shower or under the blankets... its the hormones at work.. and of cos Im worried if HBB is ever healthy and well... Explainable since I realy dun wan to go thru life with an unhealthy child and the pain of losing them . I tink I have enuff of such in life.. sigh...

Thankfully.. I think the past 4 weeks wait is fruitful.
While I knwo I shld expect HBB to be showing a baby shape today via the scan.. still im thrill to see HBB haha... HBB was busy kickign ard while dr Tee scan me. seems like tis is a proud little fella who like to show off LOL...
showing off how long he/she is... the sihoulette somehow tell me HBB is a boy...

At 4.8cm.. its an amazing 4cm longer than 4 week ago and so .. HBB is growing like 1cm a week?

Dr Tee say HBB is growing well..
Despite mumm have lost another 1.3kg.. thats a total of 2.3kg in all.
But with the gain of HBB growth.. he say its doesnt matter if i gain/lose anythg at all. Now I weigh 49.5kg...

Big Mac was funny.. he asked me after we left the consultation room... if I can feel HBB kicks? haaa of cos not.. thou once a while i do feel some kind of vibration... .but i doubt is HBB at work LOL

Im due to go bk for check up onli 5 weeks later..that be aft Big MAc trip... oops.. hee cant see gender yet... so too bad.. onli unisex clothes allowed on the spree list!


Dr Tee talked bout down snydrome test today and I decided to go along with the test thou I knw risk are low and people will protest on why I want such test. I love HBB as much as any mummy loves their child that why I want such test to be done. I want HBB not to suffer ... I can onli give HBB the best till the day I die. .after which noone will provde for HBB and so I must make sure HBB is healthy and fit enough to stand on his own feet. So i decided to go for the test on monday,,
I keep my figner cross all will be fine. seriously... I am worried.. so worried I cried... such pain and worries I go through I dont think Big mac can understand. I can only stomach it myself.
Im trying to stay positive.. afterall im nt that old rite?!?!! the risk is like 0.2%? and so HBB will be very blessed at the very least hehe... Hbb will b a healthy n bouncy baby.. Im going to spend the 4300 for nothg.. and im glad!

Im not looking fwd to put on more weight for now ... not that im vain LOL.. but since HBB is growing well..why force feed myself? just eat healthily yea...

Tummy starting to show... and partly cos i already hve a small tummy to begin with hehe... maternity pants rocks! they are so comfy.. and show off the shape so well LOL... cool... H&M ROCKS!

I did not prepare any present for dear big mac... for I know.. the scan today will be his best gift... Hope Big mac will guai guai and start saving hard for HBB hehe and be a good daddy

2nd Gynae visit

We decided to go for the gynae visit earlier.. as Big Mac will be away next week.

10 days ago we saw our 1st scan.. and now.. our 2nd. HBB have grown to 0.86cm.. still v tiny.. and this tinypea is enuff to create havoc in my life.. im puking worse than ever. and YES! we saw the heartbeat.. I was very cukoo LOL... I laid thr.. while Dr tee showed us the heart beat.. I tot it was the monitor flickering LOL.. but big mac could see it clearly... how cool... I wish I could carry HBB in my arms then..

I lost 1 kg for the past 10 days... thats alot i tink...
now I weigh 50.8kg...

Dr tee is very assuring... he say bb is growing well... and said can go bk for check up 4 weeks later...

While waiting for the counter to bill me.. I cant wait but go and puke... i look as if im fainting.... its bad... MS sucks!

When i got back.. Big Mac got the nxt appt already.. oh well.. 11 dec... hee.. what a date.. its big mac birthday!! will he get 1 of the best present ever?? Im sure he will...

puke, blood, and more

I been puking since last fri if i rem correctly...
initialy i realy puke out things... 4 time a day only...

After monday... things began to change... I cant puke most o fthe time... i went w/o puking anythg solid for 1 day I think.. and finally when I did.. nohg much came out... but just then.. I begin to see blood in the saliva I spat out while puking.. my delicate throat is injured... boohoo...
Ya see.... I dun even eat things like cookies n etc cos they hurt my throat alot.. I hate that feelling.. and now the puking realy injured me...

Big Mac got me laksa fr hong lim complex yesterday.. but somehow its not spicy.. it s sweet... Needless to say.. hamburger rejected everything...
Then the wrong mee tai mak today. I wanted fish ball.. yet he got me... ehh mince meat... Again everything came out... gosh

I ate a slice of bread at 4pm.. I tink its stuck somewhere in the throat now... sigh

OUR 1st meeting

Our 1st meeting with han bao today.

Coincidentally its mummy's buttday =) Happy Buttday to me!

I choose Dr John Tee @ KKH, The private Suite as my chosen gynae for han bao.

We were late for appt! gosh... but luckily.. we did not have to wait too long =)

Im pretty worried whether I can see the sac today since its pretty early.. like 5 weeks plus..

Routine test includes: Urine test, blood pressure as well as weight taking.

Currently at 51.8Kg (thats an increment fr my previous weight!)

Wait for about 10 mins for my turn.. enuff time to drink up a cup of hot milo while waiting since I just emptied my bladder due to the urine test hehe

Preparing myself to go for V scan later on when I go in..

Saw Dr Tee, a friendly gynae .. much friendlier than the previous one =)

With confidence.. he said he will give me a tummy scan instead of V scan which is more invasive.

And there we saw Han Baoz..

A v tiny sac.. but lucky thing was its visible via tummy scan!

No heartbeat seen yet.. still too small.. but Im happie enuff to see the sac =)

After some Q&A with the gynae.. we can go off... Dr Tee says go bk in 2 weeks time to scan again for the heart beat.. 2ww sucks.. but I am happie to wait =)

Dear Han Bao pls grow fast so daddy mummy can see ur heart thumping hehe

I got the 2nd best gift in my life today =)

My best gift? Big Mac of cos =p

Starting...

Started to feel heart is beating faster.. May said cos heart need to pump blood n oxygen to han bao..

last ntie I managed to have a good nite sleep... no cramp or tummyache... but later in the day time I got a bad one =( so which is better? haiz

My Merlion stance now increaswed to 3 times.. morning... before lunch and before dinner... need to clear my tummy before eating huh? HAA

Han Bao's heart shld have started beating le... tomorrow we can see on the scan.. twinkle twinkle little star =)

Its my buttday tomolo.. this will be my best pressie =)

Evening sickness?

I puke again this evening.. I wonder am I having evening sickness?? not too bad if tis evening sickness haha cos just once only LOL

had bad nite last nite.. cramp n tummyache till break out in cold swet... shucks...

My 1st Merlion Stance

My 1st puke started ...
My milo, bread and oats all came out.. sigh... I guess this is just the tip of an ice berg...
5 weeks.. and counting...

Double Promotion?

Couple of months back.. while we are trying hard to ttc... I always wonder why is it a failed mission... I consoled myself.. perhaps, its fated.. cos being promoted means a big thg and we sure need to get promoted with a bang =) I was wondering perhaps, Daddy Big Mac will be able to get a double promotion. Well I have this stupid idea.. cos the year he was promoted at work.. the same period.. he was promoted to be a hubby.. and oerhaps han bao is just waiting for the period to come hee...

Strangely.. my prophecy might come true once again. I was counting the EDD via an online calculator.... and the EDD was either 1st or 2nd July '09.. how interesting if daddy big mac get his promotion next yr too... its a promotion I been hoping he will get.. and now.. if its a double promo... Its the best thg that ever can happen rite?

I dreamt of 2 little babies on my bed 2 nites ago... few weeks bk i dreamt I got a positive on OPK (despite my O was long over) and indeed I tested +ve on opk last week in a hurry =p... and so... wat is the last dream is going to come true? Am I going to have double cheeseburger? *chuckles* I am thinking too much LOL. Hopefully on monday we can know the figures... LOL

Blur Mummy

I got the weekly dates wrong.. seems like today is the start of my 5th week only HAHAHAA... oh my dear han bao.. can u grow faster please.. i want to see u on tv hehe

Well or unwell?

I haven got much to update.. but to keep my mind active.. and my memory from failing.. I tot I might just want to have a record of whats going on within me...

Yesterday I was out for half a day since late aftnoon... I was kind of scare tat I will feel sick n puke outside since no serious kind of puking is at presence for now. Funnily.. apart from the mrt ride which had some scent of certain ppl which make mi feel sick.. otherwise im like a happy bird.. Hamburger likes to go gai gai!

I had a potato salad for tea break fearing I might go on hunger pangs suddenly... and dinner at Dian Xiao Er... oh My.. Im surprised I could eat almost anythg everythg haaa... and I could still shop at carrefour... just tat by time I got bk I koink out hehe

I begin to feel worried... since suddenly I do not feel unwell... perhaps its just too early to feel unwell int he 1st pl.. but with its presence and suddenly disappearance there is a call for concern.
But who knows by time I reach lift lobby I feel so sick... I realy almost puke.. my eyes already teary by then... lucky I managed to control hehe

Anyway I begin to feel alittle of sore boobs liao.. I hope its a good sign hehe...

Some mummy wanna be friends have asked me for tips for the success of this month... and I thought its good to pen it down here too...

I used preseed for the 1st time.
I had my HSG done coincidentally at the same month too
I was not feeling good end of last mth and went to the GP, and was given multi vits like vit b as he suspect my body lack of certain vit.

This are the 3 new thg that happen within a mth.

Also I suffered from a round of food poisoning. Which causes me to LS near 10 times in a day and I ate near a can of pineapple to get rid of the virus... Pris made me some cucumber kimchi 2 weeks ago, and I ate everything up in 2 days...
on and off every week or so my tummy felt weird.. Loose stools.... weird...

So tell me.. with the amount of pineapple n cucumber that I had consumed.. would I have ever tot I might graduate this month? Obviously not.. and yes... it always happened at the least expected... this was my mentality for this month.. and Im glad I did not think too much bout it... now I get my fruit... geez...

Im anxiously waiting for 3rd nov for my 1st gynae appt.... Meanwhile.. Im feeding hamburger with loads of things..perhaps durian as well? since it prob will help hamburger to gro bigger and we can see him/her at the scan easily...

Hamburger.. promise me... dun play hide n seek with us ok!

CD29, 4 weeks

I couldn't sleep last night... I watched dvd till 2am ..before i finaly slept... by 4ish in the morning I was up... pop bk to sleep... and by 8 am I am wide awake.. cant even go back to sleep... I gt soemyoyomood.. suddenly I feel so lost... I suddenly cried... ya..call it hormonal changes... I tot the best way is to go ahead n chat w my bunch of soon to be mummy friends...

By 10ish.. I tot maybe I should have breakfast. Maybe I should fix my meal time.. .so tat its more predictable... I had my milk n cornflakes w raisins.. I could barely fin the bowl of bf.. haiz... after which I start to feel sick.. the tummy is upside down.. Moral of the story... dun eat when U r not hungry....

Noon time I went down to get some meat for dinner... cant decide wat to have for lunch... so I stole a bit of my dinner (kimchi chiggae) to eat.. oh my... when I amhungry and eat this... it makes my day! duno is the msg or the spiciness haaa... at least i dun feel unwell... but the bruping continues....

I dun fancy chicken wing anymore... I can no longer stomach a curry puff and a chicken wing at 1 go... it took mi 4 hours to eat this 2 items when dear got it for mi.. too greasy I guess

I have no appetite for dinner..but dear gotto eat.. I had the soup n the mushroom.. suddenly the appetite came.... yes it chg faster than the weather.. so I got myself some brown rice to go w the soup... hee.. satisfying...

I hope to sleep by midnite hee...

on n off.. i tell hamburger dun disturb me.. let mi eat n sleep properly LOL.. lets hope hamburger understand what I mean...

And Im gettign a little greedy... I wnder is it just a hamburger.. or is it a double cheese burger!!!! haha.. ok greedy me... but I am hoping the clomide fr the last few months gave me more than 1 burger LOL

Nxt week I am gg to start hamburger on Mozart Effect twice daily...

oh yes.. my date with Dr Tee is set.. on my buttday 1500hours... I am getting my buttday gift on that day!!!!

The 1st positive

I haven placed much hope for this month despite.. oh well we did work hard for it.. but since I had my HSG done earlier in the month.. I thought this cycle will be wasted...

Still, the preseed came into pic when "A" striked and I offered to take over her remaining tubes.. and I hurriedly collected from her during my CD12 hic hic hic... and of cos use it lar.. we used it for cd 14 as well.. after which cd 15 I just skipped using it as I thought I want to save the rest for nov =p

I had an open mind.. cos dear have been flying... 1st he went off for like 12 days.. bk for 10 days.. then away for another week... on my part.. I had my gfs to acc mi.. celebrate the birthdays n etc.. It totally took my mind off bout TTC-ing. Days pass... and well it seems boobies are not sore as yet..Im worried.. it means AF is not coming yet... I normaly feel sore 1 week before if not more... The bunch of girls encourage me..telling me that its a sign.. cos its diff... oh well hw cold i believe that.. cos the soreness period have been declining since 3 mth ago.. from 2 weeks.. to 10 days to 7 days.. and now none...

Last night... I was feeling really warm.. I keep complaining to my friends.. they prob tot I was overly sensitive.. but Im usualy very sensitive actualy... even to minor changes... I felt my feet sweating... palm sweating... hot air gushing out. I took my temp.. 37.1 degree.. I was quite gan cheong.. either i am running a temperature.. or sth is not right... I ask "K".. K said night temp is normaly higher... and so I dismissed the thought of testing...

Today, cd28, I woke up and took my BBT.. thanx to "C" who encouraged me to... 36.92 degree.. STILL HIGH... usualy I think my body temp is about 36.3.. yes im cold blooded haaaa

In a hurry.. I dig thru my drawer for the HPT... I saw those OPK i got fr UK.. not what I wanted.. then I saw 1 kit..that looks diff from others.. grab it and run off to toilet... cos I realy urgent! and I knw its tough to test after 1st pee cos I drink too much water after that.
after I stick the strip in... ehhh I realise the strip have the green coding... ehhhh ehhh ... thats an OPK no? HAHA ... but hey! 2 lines appear... 2 boldline... I have NEVER EVER gotten such bold lines during my mid cycle period. and so this is amazing...
After much Q&A.. I decided to try again with the proper HPT.. I got 3 left in drawer.. hidden somewhere further in haaaa...

I keep my finger cross... I hope I dun get the imagine a line syndrome... `grin`
I was anxious... I been using this HPT for MONTHS and I always get a white as sheet result.. I hope I could imagined a line but hey myeye is alrite.. cant imagine... today... I tot I saw a faint line... I rubbed my eyes.. stare at it again... for 5 mins... ehh the line is forming... I smiled ... darn happie alrite! then again only cd 27.. Im also worried is a false positive..

I cant decide to tell dear anot... cant disappoint him later on rite? I try to get him on sms but he din reply... aft some hours... he call mi back.. I guess he could have guessed what I want to tell him.... but I refused to say HAHAAAAA

ANyway the rest is history... I think is for real... cos the very night... I felt sick... bloated.. lots of gas... .my taste bud seems diff.. yes too early to have changes.. but I swear its real.. plain water taste weird... I need my bori tea.. hehe

Dear suggested a celebration.. but since nothg is confirmed... I dont want to celebrate as yet... is onli 27 days... seriously... han bao bao is prob 15 days old ok... haha.. I call the little one han bao bao hee.. yet to tell dear tat thou... He shall read this blog n get to know himself hee.. Dear is han... so is little one.. is a little baby... so bao bao.. and ok.. its hamburger.. daddy is Big Mac.. while mummy is Mc spicy LOL
I told dear wait till all is confirm then we celebrate(provided I dun puke my tummy upside down). Moreover I think we bursting budget for the month.. Dun want to spend so much...
so he said ok go buangkok hee.. cos there is korean food thr I wanna try.. at the food court...


He is anxious in his heart.. I know haa.. he acted cool.. grrrr... no good.. must b excited wat?? right?

I have decided to chg gynae.. from Dr Loh to Dr Tee.. since I did not realy conceived under Dr loh.. I will try to call for an appt soon.. too early to go to any gynae.. since hamburger prob onli the size of a mustard seed now.. if not smaller...

Its REAL!!!!

This blog is create ... to record the milestone in our life...
The addition of "han bao bao".. aka hamburger...

Little one will have the Han surname and I think its cute to give him/her such a nick now.. hee.. after all.. is our little bao bao mah =)
and is a miraculous month for me.. since I have done or eaten 101 nono thgy hehe