1st Black Out

I encounter my 1st black out today while shopping at the mall..
Funnily... I have ever been more tired yet alone at the mall for an even longer period of time some how.. today was bad...

I just q for some gift wrapping... and the q I was in.. i tink prob jus 5 mins (thou it felt kind of long)
For no reason suddenly I saw stars.. .ears were blocked.. and I told Big Mac to take over the q while I try to stand by the wall... oh well before I knew it.. .I was already on the floor.. .Horror...
Luckily some nice shopper offered me medical oil.. and rub my limbs. My limbs seem all numb and I was in cold sweat. I came to before long... and feel like puking... haiz.. luckily Idid not puke thr haha else I will freak all out.. thou I did hav a plastic bag with me... The BHG people offered me hot drinks and ambuance which I declined...

Now I have painful butt n knee cos i tink I knock onto them when I fell... OUCH

1st trimester is over!

Its either its officially over.. or is it already over?
I am confused as some website says i am while some say soon. Moreover with the change of EDD it seems like I am more confused than ever.. but strangely my morning sickness is still plugging me... thou its much better compare to week 5 or so.. but still its really irritating when I need to puke when I go out.. esp when the car goes over a hump and shake me and lil hbb a little...

I can eat slightly better now.. More of popiah, and fan choy, and also wantan mee... thats about all... haaa

Oh ya I managed to eat half a foot of subway sandwich yesterday too... n felt hungry rather fast after that...

Doctors and websites say actualy we just need to eat our normal portion from now till end of 2nd tri.. and 3rd tri jus need to eat slightly more... but seriously.. my daily intake of food (including frequency but excluding puking) is at least 3 to 4 times more.. I counted... I have like 6 meals a day...

Big Mac will make mi milo every morning, leave it by the bed so the moment I wake up I just jump ont he cup of drink to make myself better. Then I pop back to sleep.. and have my usual cornflakes n milk at ard 10ish... by 12 I will have my lunch... then 3 i will lhave my T break. and ard 5ish near 6 will b dinner... 9ish will be supper like a fillet burger, or popiah... if not toast. Sometimes 11ish i still eat!
gosh............

I try to stretch the timing so that I can skip a meal or 2. My record was 5 meals i tink... Im tired of eating the same old food everyday.. sigh...

Nxt week Big Mac is gg back to work.. I tink my days of plain porridge is BACK AGAIN... I still doesnt realy dare to goout n buy lunch alone since i feel breatheless very often.. I duno why...

NT Scan

Today I went down for the NT scan. Its mainly for down syndrome. I have my concern on such thing and so decided to go for the test.
Big Mac was busy.. so I gotto go alone.. He shld have tag along LOL.. cos today I saw HBB dancing in thr... was moving the body up n down... quite a funny sight.. at 1st I thought its a hiccup sign but the sonar say its normal movement hehe.. how cute...

the neck thickness was measured, and the nasal bone was detected. both showed that bb have lower risk of abnormalities. Oh im glad... but further test are needed. Gave 3 tube of blood for testing. The nurses were pretty good I must say.. well I dun expect much at KKh haa but they surprised me... I felt a needle poking thru me.. and then no more pain.. and before i knew it.. the nurse said all done... and i tto i onli had a tube.. but she said 3! wahhh... she is realy nice... make me painfree.. ok well.. im not afraid of needles in 1st place HAHAAAAA

3rd Gynae visit

For the past 4 weeks.. life was yoyo for me.. either i puke like mad.. or I am good as ever...

Its a tough 4 weeks to b frank
Big Mac cant come home occassionally meaning I have to settle my own meals..
oh well im sick of eating alrite..esp so when i can onli eat pasta, mee sua and porridge.. PLAIN! n not forgetting fillet o fish...

I get kind of depress occasionaly and cried alone esp in the shower or under the blankets... its the hormones at work.. and of cos Im worried if HBB is ever healthy and well... Explainable since I realy dun wan to go thru life with an unhealthy child and the pain of losing them . I tink I have enuff of such in life.. sigh...

Thankfully.. I think the past 4 weeks wait is fruitful.
While I knwo I shld expect HBB to be showing a baby shape today via the scan.. still im thrill to see HBB haha... HBB was busy kickign ard while dr Tee scan me. seems like tis is a proud little fella who like to show off LOL...
showing off how long he/she is... the sihoulette somehow tell me HBB is a boy...

At 4.8cm.. its an amazing 4cm longer than 4 week ago and so .. HBB is growing like 1cm a week?

Dr Tee say HBB is growing well..
Despite mumm have lost another 1.3kg.. thats a total of 2.3kg in all.
But with the gain of HBB growth.. he say its doesnt matter if i gain/lose anythg at all. Now I weigh 49.5kg...

Big Mac was funny.. he asked me after we left the consultation room... if I can feel HBB kicks? haaa of cos not.. thou once a while i do feel some kind of vibration... .but i doubt is HBB at work LOL

Im due to go bk for check up onli 5 weeks later..that be aft Big MAc trip... oops.. hee cant see gender yet... so too bad.. onli unisex clothes allowed on the spree list!


Dr Tee talked bout down snydrome test today and I decided to go along with the test thou I knw risk are low and people will protest on why I want such test. I love HBB as much as any mummy loves their child that why I want such test to be done. I want HBB not to suffer ... I can onli give HBB the best till the day I die. .after which noone will provde for HBB and so I must make sure HBB is healthy and fit enough to stand on his own feet. So i decided to go for the test on monday,,
I keep my figner cross all will be fine. seriously... I am worried.. so worried I cried... such pain and worries I go through I dont think Big mac can understand. I can only stomach it myself.
Im trying to stay positive.. afterall im nt that old rite?!?!! the risk is like 0.2%? and so HBB will be very blessed at the very least hehe... Hbb will b a healthy n bouncy baby.. Im going to spend the 4300 for nothg.. and im glad!

Im not looking fwd to put on more weight for now ... not that im vain LOL.. but since HBB is growing well..why force feed myself? just eat healthily yea...

Tummy starting to show... and partly cos i already hve a small tummy to begin with hehe... maternity pants rocks! they are so comfy.. and show off the shape so well LOL... cool... H&M ROCKS!

I did not prepare any present for dear big mac... for I know.. the scan today will be his best gift... Hope Big mac will guai guai and start saving hard for HBB hehe and be a good daddy